I have just finished my physics exam, and then I have two other exams and then I’m done. I’m graduating next week and I can’t believe it.These past five years( quebec is stupid and high school is from grade 7 to 11) have been insane and I’m not going to lie and say they were amazing but I am going to miss it. High school was really hard for me, not academically wise but more socially and without books I don’t know what I would have done. Since I’m going to be a high school graduate in mere days, I’ve been reflecting a lot and I thought that today I’d do a post that showcased the books that really helped me and made me feel less lonely.
Would a list be really complete without my favorite book ever?I first read this book in grade seven and it honestly changed my life.If I had to pinpoint a time where my book obsession morphed into what it is today,I’d have to say that The Book Thief changed the way I read books.I really hated grade seven and just felt so tired of everyone around me but I think that having The Book Thief as my favorite book made everything feel better.
Grade 8 was the year that I homeschooled because I thought school was too easy( boy was I pretentious) Grade 8 was also the year where I really discovered a lot of shit about myself, one being the fact that I have social anxiety.I always knew that I was shy but I never knew that it was anything more than that, but after reading some descriptions I realized that I have hella bad anxiety. While I know some people find Fangirl to be kind of problematic, I really identified with Cath as a character as she had personality traits very similar to mine which made me feel less alone.It was nice seeing a character with social anxiety, though I’m unsure if it was ever charactarized as such. Though if I read it now I’ probably wouldn’t like it that much, I loved it back then and remember being really sad one day and just picking Fangirl up and then I felt a lot better.
After grade 8 I had to go back to school which I thought was the worst thing that ever happened to me. Obviously I was a melodramatic brat and it really wasn’t the end of the world. School still sucked but that was life. Solitaire was another book whose main character I really identified with. While I recognize the fact that this book was kind of problematic and Alice Oseman was definitely grown as an author, I still really love this book. I love how pessimistic Tori was and how relatable she was as a character. I just remember reading this book intensely in class while everyone was watching a movie and how much I loved it. Solitaire was one of the first books where I really related to the teens portrayed in it and kind of made me feel a little bit better about who I was .
Though grade 10 was like a year ago, it seems like ages ago. I really do think that I’ve changed a lot in the past year, and definitely for the better. Grade 10 was a year where I was trying to figure out what I wanted to do with my life and for a good five or six months I really convinced myself that I wanted to be a mathemetician, I eventually realized that while I love math, it wasn’t a job that I wanted to do for the rest of my life. While Lola and The Boy Next Door isn’t the exact book that helped me a lot, this genre is something that I reach for a lot in that year and also previous years.Contemporaries helped me to imagine a different and more fun life than the one I had and contemporaries like Lola made me feel really happy when nothing else would.
The Lies of Lizzie Lovett was one of the first books I got for review and really starting this blog and reviewing books has really helped me fortify my passion and made me realize that I want to work with books for the rest of my life. This year was one where I discovered a lot about people around me and realized that the people in my class aren’t that bad.I spent so much of my high school career thinking that I was better then them because I read and I was so “smart” and I never really stopped to think that I was being stupid.In the past few months I’ve really grown to appreciate the people that I went to school with and interract with them a little more. I’m really glad I did because I really enjoy talking to some of them. I would’ve never thought that I would go to prom and I guess it’s crazy how some things change. I still hate a lot of them but I will miss a lot of them. High school was hard but this year wasn’t so bad.
What were the books that got you through high school?